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The following Featured Post comes from Relationship Group 3, Thread 7. 1. Cicily's Job Tonight, Cicily said that she feels like it's her job to re-educate the people she meets at Colgate, but that she doesn't want this job. And of course she's right to feel this way. Whenever I meet people -- not just white people -- who have never met black people, I feel the same pressure and the same desire to walk away from that role. It cannot be completely ignored, however. The simple fact is, if I am the only African American this person is going to meet, their impression of me is likely to be their impression of *all* African Americans ... whether this is right or wrong, it's true. I work in a community where there are many women of color who are nannies and housekeepers. When people on the bus, or clerks in shops choose to chat with me, invariably the subject of the family I work for comes up. Clearly, regardless of the fact that there are plenty of women of color who are neither nannies or housekeepers (and despite the fact that many of them live in NYC), the images these people hold onto doesn't include other possibilities. If I am a casually-dressed black woman standing on the corner of 84th and 3rd, I must be someone's servant. Like Cicily, I don't want the responsibility of teaching these people that their perceptions of black women are wrong. If I don't make the effort, however, who's going to? The stereotyping spreads too quickly and too easily: I cannot count how many times children have asked me questions about "my little girl," when they mean the child they assume I am paid to care for. It makes me angry -- as it clearly makes Cicily angry -- but we are a *long* way from not needing to do this "job." 2. This subject really made me think... We lived in Michigan for a year while Chad was in the Coast Guard, my husband spending much of his time on a boat, or in port somewhere else, where he would go out drinking with his friends. I should say that the make-up of the town where we were living was only about 3% black..possibly less. It was so difficult for us both while we were there because of the isolation we felt at being such an oddity to everyone there. But I know he went through much more than I did, as the well meaning white people he met in these many and mostly white towns would come up off the street and shake his hand, just so they could say they once met someone black and were nice to them. He came home after one trip just really frusterated, telling me he felt like a 'fucking museum.'--sorry if I can't use that word here. But at the same time, he would never think of being rude--unless having a really bad day, because just as Ethie's girl, he knows that he may be the only roll model for a black person they ever come into contact with--wow, this has really brought up a lot of feelings for me, of thinking how hard he always tries, and how some people still don't see the real and wonderful person that he is...I can't imagine even how that must feel. 3. I quit I used to feel like Cicily, that I had to enlighten people about the diversity that exists within the black community, but not anymore. It's a frustrating and never-ending task. And instead of making me feel more comfortable in my environment, it only makes me feel more different. Also as I get older (I just turned 34) I find that I am impatient with people when they say insenstive things. 4. Ethie's Girl, Bethanie and Jacqueline Jacqueline, that experience sucks. But this attitude is not unique to white people. Black people also probably think that the only thing that makes you black is your skin color. I have had black people call me an "oreo", tell me that I am a "wanna be" (black or white?) and tell me that I "talk white". I think that real difference comes in when you are talking across socioeconomic lines. That's when I find that I have to teach people. Upper class whites and blacks do the same kinds of things, go to the same kinds of schools and entertain themselves in the same ways. Three quarters of what Cicily spoke about did not seem to be race but socioeconomic status. But if her family were also rich then the gap between Cicily and her white school mates would have been smaller. 5. cont. But Bethanie, I understand what your husband is saying. Because although I felt that I had "won" by being articulate, cool, and pleasant, by the time I arrived home I was shaking. With fear, anger and just general indignity. You don't want to feel like you are always on display or are some special collection. (Tell your husband that I really like his museum reference). But your husband is lucky that you are cognizant of what he is going through. That makes it so much easier. 6. It should not be anyone's job No one should feel he/she has to "explain" his or her culture or race, but sadly many feel they have to and eventually grow tired, as Cicily indicated in last night's episode. 7. a quick clarification When I said people ask about "my little girl," I didn't mean that I actually have a child with me at the time. Children seem to assume that I must be on my way to or from taking care of some child. (I don't have any of my own.) It is true, however, that when I am out with my nephew or niece (both of whom are *very* light-skinned), people *do* assume that I am their babysitter, not their aunt. 8. Wow! So many stories! Reading all of this makes me feel so sad. It's a shame that as human beings on the verge of the 21st century, we have come so far. And, yet it seems as if we haven't accomplished much at all. When I see someone on the street, I look at the person as an individual. Not as a cardboard cutout of society's representation of a person... Read more featured posts here or continue reading thread 7 from Relationship Group 3. |
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